I can't believe I have already made it to the third trimester....or really close depending on which website you look at. Thankfully the pregnancy is going fairly quickly, and starting next week, I will be seeing the doctor a whole lot more which I am sure will help my nerves.
This little guy has been a pretty chill baby. He moves a fair amount...but he likes to nap a lot too. Imagine that, a growing baby needs his sleep. I do not do well with his down time though. If I haven't felt him in an hour or so, I find myself poking and prodding my belly to try to get him moving. If that doesn't do it, I have resorted to pop, a sugary treat or a spicy snack...whatever it takes. I read that his brain is starting to function a whole lot better this week...he is probably starting to think, "Mom, stop bugging me!"
In all honesty, these quiet moments bring back the morning we found out we had lost Isaiah. I have never mentioned this on my blog, but the morning of that shattering doctors appointment, Isaiah wasn't moving. I kept trying to get him to move. I even had an orange juice which often worked. Still nothing. I tried not to get worried. I had felt him a ton the night before, and I had an appointment later in the morning where I could verify that everything was ok....only it wasn't.
I know each pregnancy and each baby is different so I am trying to adjust to the patterns of this baby, but at times its hard. I keep trying to remind myself to lean on God more and more. He loves this baby more than Matt and I ever could, but still its hard. Through these moments, I am really learning that Christian catch phrases are often a bunch of bunk and not helpful. I keep hearing, "Just have faith." Well ok there is truth in that, but its just not that simple. I am learning that if faith were always easy...it wouldn't be faith. There is no "just have" about it. Having faith and trusting God is a daily battle to take him at his word and turn over each worry and concern to him. This a great lesson for me to learn...but not an easy one for this hard headed girl!
